Mirror or Mirage?

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21 May 2005

Family

This post originates from an unknown source which came to me in an e-mail forwarded by a dear friend.

It endorses what I believe in. If we are wise, we will only invest in what is worth it.

F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.

He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."

We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,

"While dealing with a stranger,common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.

Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.

He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."

I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."

He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway."

I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

FAMILY
If we were to die tomorrow, the company we work for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?

19 May 2005

Reflecting on reflecting

I have been in deep thought over the last couple of days.. it seems as though I have become a bystander in my own world.. and I just keenly observe all that is goin on around me... in my life, in my relationships. I notice each thing that makes me smile, notice what makes me cringe, what causes tears to well up in my eyes, what results in a sweet moment where my tears are choked up in emotion over experiencing emotional bliss.. what it means to be human.

We are truly gifted with all that we have been given. And life is so so beautiful. If only we could take the time to check it out every once in a while. I, for one, am very glad that I have made it a point to slow down in life, so that I can experience each moment without rushing through it. I do not want to push aside anyone close or forsake a shared moment with them in the rush of monkeying around for commercial reasons in this money-driven society.

I want pause. I have designed the pause. And now, I am taking advantage of it. It is an amazing feeling to actually live life... and I am enjoying it in a completely different way....

All I can say is - guys - don't miss out on life! You only get one shot at it. Live it to the fullest. Live each MOMENT - Experience Everything .

17 May 2005

Of Random Thoughts

I had stopped writing for the last couple of days... I realised that there was some deep thinking going on inside me... and that resulted in my having mixed feelings about what to write about. In the last two days, I have realised a number of small things ... but these small things have an impact so great on my life that I thought I would share them. So that, if any of you should observe that these elements appear in your lives too, then we truly have something to be grateful for:

- when you have a really hard day at work and you know that home is just 15 minutes away and that as soon as you enter your home, you are greeted by the loving arms of your mother who understands all as she holds you while you hug her in silence.

- when you are pressed for time, your every effort in spending even the slightest amount of time with your folks is greeted with patience and a loving gaze.. for there is an implicit understanding that you are only doing your best to make ends meet.

- when you have one (or more) people who love you unconditionally for just being you. These are friends who are there for you when you need them and even when you don't. They are there to share your happiness and sorrows alike and want nothing from you except, that you let them be there.

- when you share moments of such hearty laughter with your parents that each of you is teary-eyed to the point where nobody seems to remember what triggered the giggles in the first place. And it doesn't matter!

- when you have a fit of anger triggered from a matter at work or otherwise and you let it out on your family in frustration, you are still warmly taken care of and respected all the same by your family. They eagerly await for the lifting of the mist so that they are assured that you are okay.

- when your sadness or disappointment is clearly written all over your face but it is known that you would rather not talk about it. Your silence is respected and you are given the space you need.

- when you are about to just breakdown due to the pressures around you and suddenly out of nowhere, your family is there to help you through in ways that you could never fathom. They do it just so that you are spared the difficulty of braving your storm alone.

- when your family is there to sacrifice for you time and time again in the different ways that it does, despite having performed their sacrifices for years on end for the duration of your life. So that you always experience happiness and constant support. A sense of giving that is SO selfless.

I hope that my family too can feel the weight of my support, the strength of my shoulders to shoulder their burdens, my big heart so that there is ample room to share in their every happiness or sorrow, and my hands, that shall always rise in service to them whenver they need me.


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